Monday, May 17, 2010

It has been a long time!

It has been a long time. I suppose i have been scared to write this update, but here i go anyway.

I have a new Neurosurgeon and he along with a number of other new specialists think it will be ok for me to have another pregnancy. So great news but i still worry that come the 29th of July when i have my next and supposedly final scan (before getting pregnant) they will change their minds.

So until then that is my news. If all well we will start TTC in August.

Bring on JULY 29TH!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

My husband

How remiss of me, i have not told you about my husband. I met J when we were in year 8. I think the first thing i showed him was my scare on my leg and i told him it was a shark bite.

He was my first boyfriend at 15 and at 27 we were married and had our first baby at 28.

He really is a special man. He is my best friend, makes me laugh, knows how to "deal" with me and he is a truly fabulous father. Actually all i hear all day is "dad, dad, dad" ahhhhh Sophia he is at WORK!!!!!

He is also a pretty spunky man.

I love him. x

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

My Life

That is my daughter above this blog. Cute isn’t she. I love her so much and I am so happy she chose us to be her parents.

She is 13 months tomorrow.

Things she does now
Walks holding on to your hand.
Says cat, duck, bird, mum, dada, pane (plane), hi, bye and boobies!
Eats with a spoon
Screams when she does not get what she wants
Runs away (crawls away really)
Shares toys

Things she does not do
Sleep through the night
Laugh when you tickle her
Eat all her dinner
Say meow (even though I have tried for two months)

I really love being her Mum.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Two days two blogs.

Sometimes i feel that my husband is just along for the ride on this surrogacy journey. I feel that if it was up to him he would be satisfied with one child. I don't want to pressure him into this but i think i have. He knows how much it means to me so he will comply because he loves me. Is this good enough? Does this make me a terrible person? Will it compromise our marriage?

My friends don't get it. They think India and surrogacy our crazy. I think they think I'm crazy.

"You know you already have one baby, your lucky" my response is "my family does not feel complete, some people don't want children, some people want one and some people want five. My family is not complete. If Sarah Jessica Parker can do it so can i"

I had a friend for lunch on Saturday. She is the sister of a good friend of ours and i don't know her that well but she invited us to her house after we had met at her brothers wedding. She has a little boy born through IVF. We spoke about surrogacy. After she left she sent me this email.

Thanks for a great lunch yesterday - was really relaxing and great to catch up with you all - Sophia is growing in leaps and bounds! Funny as Lucas has woken up this morning and starting to crawl a little - maybe he learnt off Sophia!The salmon and dessert was amazing too thanks. Good luck with the surrogacy journey you guys may be about to embark on - not easy but will have lots of rewards. Don't worry about people judging you about the cost or about your decision. I was thinking about it and we spent about $25-30K to get Lucas into our life and I have never regretted a cent of it. In fact I have already pretty much forgotten about it - nothing mattered once he arrived! You can't really put a price on a baby's life. At the same time we were lucky we could afford it. Just means we travelled overseas less. Chat soon,

It touched me because even though she does not know me she gets it.

Right, baby is asleep and i need to get ready and start my day.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

I'm no blogger

Seriously, I'm not. I have never really read blogs or thought of doing one. A year changes everything.

Two years ago tonight my husband had his first Epileptic seizure. Crazy!

One year ago last month i had a Brain Hemorrhage. Bummer!

The love of my life is tucked up in her cot and my husband is in the kitchen cleaning up from dinner.

We embark this year on a journey to complete (or at the very least) add to our family.

The search had taken us to India. My husband feels my desperation to have another baby. I do not respond well to people telling me i cannot do something and when the doctors told me i could not have another baby my inner gangster came out. "who are you to tell me what to do" brain surgeon responds "you have one beautiful baby, your lucky" i respond "yes i am lucky but what has that got to do with me wanting another baby"

India. I went to a tarot reader in September 2007. Jen had broken up with Jonny and needed reassurance that her knight in shining armour was not far away (he wasn't and they married in 2009) The tarot reader amongst other things including the fact that i had rats in my roof (i did) also kept saying that i had some link to India, "did i know what she meant" Ummmmm no! Maybe it was because my cousins had visited "no" she said "its something else" "Ummmmm maybe because i like Indian food" "no its not that" What i should have said is "maybe its because in my future i will have my second baby through an Indian surrogate in India" Now that answer would have saved me heaps of time.

I had a boring pregnancy. Not easy but typical. Morning sickness, carpel tunnel, sore boobs, sore pelvis and the like. At 36 weeks i had a brain hemorrhage. Less boring.

I had my daughter on the 20th of December at 9.29am. On the 21st of December i was diagnosed with a DVT in my left leg.

4 weeks in hospital and we were home. I love being a Mum. I love being her mum and you know what, she really likes me.

India. Here we come.